and so the adventure begins...

Do you ever feel like you're about to take a huge step towards your dreams in life, but that step looks really rocky and you're nervous to take it because you might fall flat on your face?

Well I'm in that situation right now.

Today is my first day at my internship! I've been so excited about it since I got the email saying I got the position. I pretty much told everyone I know what I'm going to be doing. This internship is truly perfect for me. I'm an editorial intern for a book publishing company in downtown Chicago. I'll finally be getting a taste of what it will be like to actually work for a publishing company. This has been something I've been dreaming about since high school.

However, now that the day is here I'm scared I'm going to somehow mess up this opportunity I've been given. I'm scared I'm going to get there and I'm going to say the wrong thing because I don't know the publishing world language yet. The thought of failing at something that I want more than anything is a very scary thought.

I don't want to take this step and fall. I want to take this step, find my footing, and run.

I've spent this whole morning freaking out about what's going to happen when I start today. I even held back on having my morning cup of coffee because I was already too antsy from being nervous and adding caffeine to that would have been a disaster.

When I finally calmed myself down enough so I could safely have a cup of coffee I decided to make it in the same mug that I made my coffee in the first day I moved into my apartment. I didn't know what I

was doing then either. I had never lived completely on my own before and it was a lot of trial and error. It was an adventure and that's exactly what this internship is going to be, an adventure.

Adventures aren't usually easy. When the protagonist in a story goes on an adventure they usually face a lot of setbacks and they make a lot of wrong turns and I'm sure my adventure will have wrong turns in it as well.

The good thing about adventures is the protagonist always seems to come out on the other end better than they were when they first started. They may not have gotten what they wanted but somewhere along the way they learned something that changed them for the better. And in the best case scenarios they get everything they wanted and everyone lives happily ever after in the end (I'm really hoping that's what my adventure it like).

Don't get me wrong, I'm still nervous as hell to start today. So I'll just keep reminding myself all day that no matter where this opportunity takes me I'll without a doubt learn something valuable and it just might lead me to my next adventure.