i would give anything to talk to my grandpa right now

I would give anything to be able to have a conversation with my grandpa right now. The other day I had a really good thing happen so I did the usual and I called my mom and my dad, my grandparents, and my sister. Okay, so I texted my sister. What can I say? I’m a millennial. Anyway, I talked to everyone I normally do when I have good news to share, everyone except one person. I couldn’t call my grandpa.

The whole time I was walking back to my apartment I kept feeling like there was someone I was forgetting to tell my good news to. Then it hit me that I didn’t tell my Grandpa Dave and that I couldn’t tell my Grandpa Dave.

Yeah, I know, he can see every good thing that is happening to me and he is proud of me, but it still hurt that I couldn’t hear his voice. I couldn’t hear him say he’s proud of me or hear the excitement in his voice when I tell him.

I know it would be a 30 second phone call, the man wasn’t known for his long phone conversations. I know it would be a short conversation but I would give anything to have a 30 second conversation with him and then have him yell for my grandma to pick up the phone.

It’s been a little over 7 months since we lost him. I haven’t been able to write much about it and I have refrained from sharing everything I have written. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about him. I have little things around my apartment that remind me of him. My Yankees hat, a book from his bookshelf, an old cigar box that I took from his room, and pictures of the two of us are all things that bring me comfort. I feel close to him when I look at his driver’s license that my grandma let me keep. It’s weird that I am so comforted by a driver’s license but it really does make me feel better when I miss him a lot. An old cigar box and a driver’s license let me keep a little piece of him here with me at all times.

It’s cheesy to say, but I know I always have him in my heart and in my mind. I just wish I could have him here with me again. So my sister and I could bug him while he tries to watch movies again. I just wish I could give him one more hug.

I love you so much, Grandpa. I really hope your proud of me.